Ride.

I've been thinking about a few things for the past couple of days. I've been replaying all my unanswered questions about the universe that deep down in myself, I know the answers. Why are people so dense? Why are people trying to be perfect for imperfect people? Why do they have to exceed somebody else's expectations? Why, of all people, I have a fucked-up messy life? Why does these things have to happen to me? Why does the universe give you happiness and, all of a sudden, take it back and you're left there, damaged?


I know, it's very melodramatic. Hahaha. Maybe that's the thing with my head, it thinks of all these random stuff and eventually finds all the answers. One of the things that I've thought of is that nobody can ever stay in your life permanently. Sometimes you drift apart, sometimes you just don't feel like talking to that someone anymore, and sometimes, something happens and all those good memories will be thrown away in exchange of the bad ones. We all have a messy life, in our own way. There's always gonna be something that would make us change our positive outlook on the universe. At the end of the day, we will always have this one fear that once we're happy, it can all be gone sooner than we expect them to be. It's only up to us if we're gonna let it change ourselves. But we have to remember that at the end of the day, we can always choose to be happy.

Having problems is a roller coaster ride. Once we get in it, we're nervous that we might fall off our seats. There's always moments when we shout for joy, moments when we cry of fear, and moments when we take a breathe. But here's the catch, once the ride is over you will always have this desire to ride again. You know why? Because we're human. We're destined to be happy, we're destined to be afraid, we're destined to feel something. After the ride, we finally appreciate the good things in life, learn to treasure them, and finally accept that we have to keep moving forward.