HATE.

Every night. Every single night. I feel like I'm gonna burst into tears every time I'm alone. Every day is a struggle to feel better. I'm starting to think of all the things I've done wrong to deserve all this crap in my life.

I hate you. I hate you for telling me that I'm the "pabigat" when I've done nothing wrong. I hate you for starting all this crap. I hate you for being a hypocrite. I hate you because you should be the one feeling this way.

I hate you because you've never been there for me. I hate you for leaving. I hate you for making me feel so worthless. I hate you for  not apologizing. I hate you for being so insensitive. I hate you for never noticing that I'm gone. I hate you for not caring. I hate you for thinking that I was okay. 

I hate you for never seeing my worth. I hate you for not noticing me. I hate you for never caring that I wasn't okay.

I hate myself for feeling this way. I hate myself for caring too much. I hate myself for always feeling as if I'm alone when I'm not. I hate myself because I don't anymore have the guts to confide my friends with all my crap. I hate myself for choosing to handle it on my own when I don't have the strength to do so. I hate myself for being so resentful. 

Make me stronger, please. Please. :(